As a counselling psychologist, I have tried different identities and modes of thinking via person therapy, professional development and therapeutic practice, but every time I thought I discovered what is me and what is not me, I would wonder again and I am still wondering about it frequently today in my work with clients. Only now I feel more comfortable with the lack of a fixed orientation. However, I am also aware of relational developmental systems approach as a home orientation in my mode of inquiry.

Below find a few specific resources that I depend on, am steeped in and cherish when it comes to my (direct or indirect) psychotherapeutic interest in making sense of emotional experience and its multidimensional relational contexts. I feel deep gratitude to all the authors whose attitudes are expressed in these papers, and I am left with respect for the limits of my knowledge.

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